Worry Not

Everything is welcome except for statement clothes like "I have the best mother in the world" or "My mum and dad loves me, and I love them too". I think I will wait until my son can say those things and mean them himself.

In this most precious stage of my life, I have felt nearly all sorts of emotions - sometimes all at once. Most of them are good but now and again I feel perturbed about things I know I shouldn't be bothered about. I am troubled by things that might go wrong, with my prgnancy and the birth of my child alike, although I have been told that there is nothing to worry about now especially after my 20 week-scan and seeing that all my baby's organs have developed quite well as they should. His limbs and measurements are all normal. Our Down Syndrome chance is 1 in 40,000. His breathing is normal and he is inhaling and swallowing amniotic fluid well. The most reassuring I suppose is that the past 2 weeks I have felt his strong movements in my tummy. It's kind of cute that his movements are most determined in the early mornings and in the evening when I'm just getting ready for bed. It's like he is saying "good morning" and "good night" to me. Shame his dad can't feel his kicks yet but I always tell him when the baby is moving so at least he feels involved.

In spite of all these reassuring aspects of my pregnancy I still do worry. I suppose it's normal to worry a little bit but thankfully I've been blessed with strong Faith and optimism that I am able to shake my worries aside before it becomes overpowering.
Perhaps it's because of the little remnants of worry left at the back of my mind that I still haven't thought about buying anything for my son. I mean don't get me wrong, I have been looking at mothercare.com and kiddiecare.com for the past 4 months! I know exactly which cotbed I want for my son. :)

During the early stages of my pregnancy, I got very ill with extreme morning sickness. I remember my mother-in-law calling round to see how I was doing (bringing some goodies with her... my favourite Macademia nuts amongst them) and she was beaming with excitement when she casually asked if she can take me to the baby shops when I've passed my 6 month-mark. I felt absolutely beholden for having such loving in-laws.
When James told me he is ready to have children one of the main reasons he gave me was that because he wants his child to spend as many years with his parents as possible before they got too old. James was close to both sets of grandparents that he had, but he said he wished he could have spent more time with them. You can just imagine how my heart melted upon hearing that from an unemotional bloke like my husband.

As I've mentioned in my previous post, we all agreed that we won't be buying any baby stuff until I'm well on my 24th week. Or so I thought. It started with one piece at a time and yesterday whilst I was out for a 2-hour drive, mum popped in with 3 bags of baby clothes and shoes! James also went and buy a couple of onesies for our son when he went to town for his haircut. Even the nice couple we used to live next-door to gave us a little teddy for the baby. That makes me feel just a wee bit guilty for not buying anything for my son yet. That, or I'm waiting until people are done buying him stuff and IF he still needs anything after that then I will start buying. I'm joking...I think. :D

Kidding aside, I am actually prioritising the nursery. Originally, we wanted to give the second biggest bedroom to our child (naturally) but decided against it after much careful consideration. First of, the carpet in the second bedroom is quite new and is in very good condition, same goes for the embossed wallpaper. It will be a big waste to rip the room apart to turn into a nursery. Second of all the huge wardrobe in there is way too much for a baby. So for those reasons I've decided that we are going to transform the third bedroom into a nursery and the second bedroom will be our guest room instead. Yesterday we had a look at carpets and got some samples. We shall go to more carpet places in the next few days to get the ball rolling because I reckon we might have nursery furnitures before we even get this nursery carpeted :) xXx