Motherhood

So I haven't really posted anything on here after the birth of my little boy. I have planned to write every day but to be honest I never expected motherhood to be such a demanding task. I have no complaint whatsoever because my son is the best thing that has ever happened to me. When people say that we never really know pure unconditional love until we become a parent I thought it was just a mere cliche. Now I know that it is in fact a major understatement. Becoming a mother has made it easy for me to want to be a better and stronger person for my son. I have also started paying more attention to the world - from the little things like the kind of people that I encounter in public places to the British economy state. All the things that will or may affect my child in one way or another, be it big or small suddenly matters to me. Becoming a mother is a million different things to me but at the end of the day the gratitude that I have for my little miracle is what gives my life its meaning.

After my 3-day labour and battle with iron deficiency afterward I can now say that it is all worth it. I did not get to hear my son's first cry because my body was resistant to the epidural so they could not perform caesarean section with me fully conscious like what i would have preferred but the important thing is my son is all right. You see that is another thing about being a mum. I used to be a perfectionist and want everything to go according to plan but now as long as I know that at the end of the day everything and everybody is safe and well I am a happy bunny.

Another thing I discovered about myself is I could actually be patient. Whereas prior to becoming a mother patience was in short supply, if not non-existent, I find myself being a lot more patient now. Of course it truly helps that my son is always smiling and giggling and cooing and ahh-ing at me when my back and arms start to get sore from holding him all day. Yes he has always been a clingy and needy baby from the start but I have actually learned to appreciate that now because I know that when he grows up he might not want to be hugged by poor old mummy so I have decided to make the most of it.

I am writing this from my phone and I just got a low batt warning so I better publish this before it dies on me. Hopefully now that my son has a sleep routine at night I will have a bit of extra time to blog.

PS - this predictive texting has changed a lot of the words I typed in so if I missed correcting some forgive me! This programmed dictionary thinks he knows better than me haha